Heart To Heart part 1 (based on my life story) Online Lovebuzz.

Online game is a part of my life, yeah it's true until one day i found my first love there.
It began when im in 3rd grade senior high school, i played R.O.S.E online, i was playing about 2 years and in the end of my retired session of that game, i've met her, she has a nick KeroKeroPii while i was using DazzlynDash (screenshot is below my Blog main page) then i trying to acquainted with her, i made it her name is Fenny Christina, since the moment i  knew her my retired session you know is always delayed because is such a sheepish to knew her that time.
By the time i keep delayed my retired session, and she told me not to retire too, day by day we runnin' the days together, sharing each other, and talk about anything , and till one day i asked her "are you single woman?" she answer it with explanation which that explanation is meaning for my heart i still remember she answer " no,my heart belongs to someone San, but i knew like you know, we've been a friends not so long, but something just crossed my mind,because you know i spent the time more with you than with him and i dont know this feeling, but San i know this is ridicolous before i ask it, but i have my half heart just for you , wont you take it? i wondering whether i put off my answer or i just say yes to her (THIS IS WHERE MY STUPIDITY AT HIGHEST LEVEL) I say yes to her.
Ok to the point 3 months i had a foolish relation with this girl,then an unexpected event just happen she's break up with her real boy, cause of some troubles and i guees its include me too.
After that break up i have to cheer her up, it's such a you know unfeeling, must i care with this girl or what
Ok then like you thought we're keep walking this fool relation.
Terrible and so bad that's the words of this relation COZ YOU GOTTA KNOW FENNY IS NOT A GOOD GIRL, DAY BY DAY I'VE JUST GOT EATEN BY HER DAMN EGO MOREOVER HER AFFAIR WITH MANY MEN MAKE ME CRAZY, EVERYTIME I ASKED SHE JUST SAID "He's a friend" "i've done nothing", "YOU SHIT, YOU ALWAYS KEEP YOUR NEGATIVE HEAD SAN"
THEN ONE DAY THIS IS THE WORST DAY I'VE EVER HAD, I CAUGHT HER RED-HANDED DID SOME SHIT WITH FRIEND OF MINE, THEY CALLING EACH OTHER, LOVING EACH OTHER (SHITBAG), FINALLY WE DECIDED WE COMING UP IN CONFERENCE CHAT IN YAHOO MESSENGER TO CATCH UP THIS SOMEKIND OF DILLEMA SHIT.
AND OH MY LORD..YOU KNOW WHAT SHE'S CHOOSING HIM OVER ME AND I FORGET TO TELL YOU THAT MY FRIEND IS IN PEKANBARU WHILE WE (ME AND HER) IS IN SAME HOMETOWN..CAN YOU IMAGINE HOW THAT B*TCH CRASH MY HEART SO BAD?
After that twist of separation, i felt so crushed out, in the day i feeling like i wanna call her but no im a man i had a big pride inside, every night i miss the moment when she call me just to tell how she miss me a lot, feels like there is no more life is a bowl of cherries.
But look now im up and around, while im hurt many friends cheer me up, in campus ,from senior high school, My online game's friends and of course My Mother and My Jesus , all of them opened a new way for me to walk and there's no reason from dying of broken heart it's not worth it.
AND 1 MORE THING I HATE HER SO MUCH NOW, SUCH A CHILDISH? YES BUT I DONT GIVE A DAMN ANYWAY
* sorry if there are so many "dirty" words cause you know all of it from my heart for My ex-girl*